God works in different ways ..

So I've been wanting to write a blog post for quiet a while now but some how I couldn't find the right content. That is when I stumbled across a magazine which was laying on my desk for ages. Even though I use to love reading while in school now i kind of have grown out of reading stuff and more into watching video. However this time i forced myself to read this magazine as because it seemed quiet intriguing. The title of the magazine is called AWAKE and a testimonial from this person called Miklós Aleksza in the magazine made me think on the ways how GOD really works. So i've decided to share it here... 

I WAS born in the city of Szerencs and grew up in the village of Tiszaladány in the northeast of Hungary. In June 1991, some friends and I went to an unfamiliar spot on the Tisza River. Thinking that the water was deep, I dived in. It was a big mistake! I broke three vertebrae in my neck and damaged my spinal cord. My friend saw that I was not moving and carefully raised me and pulled me out before I drowned.

I remained conscious and knew that something was seriously wrong. Someone called the emergency services, and a helicopter arrived and carried me to a hospital, where doctors stabilized my spine. Later, I was transferred to the capital city, Budapest, for rehabilitation. I stayed on my back for three months. Although I was able to move my head, I had no muscle control from my shoulders down. At 20 years of age, I had become completely dependent on others. I felt so discouraged that I wanted to die.

When at last I was able to go home, my parents received training so that they could care for me. But the work was hard on them physically and emotionally, and after about a year, I descended into depression. At that point, I received professional counseling, which helped me to change the way I viewed my disability.

I also started to think more deeply about life. Does it have a purpose? Why did this tragedy happen to me? I read magazines and books in a search for answers. I also tried reading the Bible, but I found it hard to understand. So it went back on the shelf. I even had a talk with a priest, but I found his comments unsatisfying.

Then, in the spring of 1994, two of Jehovah’s Witnesses visited my father, and he asked them to speak to me. I listened as they described God’s purpose to make the earth into a paradise and to eliminate sickness and suffering. It all sounded very good, but I was skeptical. Still, I accepted two Bible study aids. After I read the books, the Witnesses offered to study the Bible with me, and I consented. They also encouraged me to pray.

I became convinced that God really does care about me

 As our discussions progressed, I received answers to my many questions straight from the Bible. I also became convinced that God really does care about me. Finally, on September 13, 1997, after studying the Bible for two years, I was baptized at home in a bathtub. It was one of the happiest days of my life.

In 2007, I moved permanently to Budapest to a home for the disabled. This move has given me many opportunities to share with others the wonderful things I have learned. In good weather, I can even go outside to talk to people, thanks to a specially adapted motorized wheelchair that I steer with my chin.

With the generous financial assistance of a family in my congregation, I was also able to obtain a laptop computer that operates by tracking my head movements. This device allows me to telephone people via the Internet and write letters to householders who were away when members of my congregation called on their homes. Helping others in this way has improved my communication skills considerably and has helped me to take my mind off myself.

Sharing the Bible’s message over the Internet with the aid of a device that tracks my head movements

I am even able to attend Christian meetings. When I arrive at theKingdom Hall, my spiritual brothers carefully carry me in my wheelchair up one floor to the meeting location. During meetings, when the audience is invited to comment, the brother sitting next to me raises his hand for me. He then holds my Bible or study aid while I make my comment.

I am in constant pain and need others to do nearly everything for me. So I still feel emotionally down at times. But I find comfort in my friendship with Jehovah God, knowing that he listens when I pour out my concerns to him. I also gain strength through daily Bible reading and from my spiritual brothers and sisters. Their friendship, emotional support, and prayers in my behalf help me to maintain mental and emotional balance.

Jehovah gave me comfort just when I needed it most. He also gave me the hope of perfect health in a new world. Hence, I yearn for the time when I can ‘walk and leap and praise him’ for his extraordinary love and kindness.—Acts 3:6-9.

7 lovely logics for Life !

1) What others think of You, is none of your business.

2) Time heals almost everything, So give the Time, some time.

3) Make Peace with your past, So it doesn't spoil your present.

4) No one is the reason of your Happiness, Except you yourself.

5) Stop thinking too much, its alright not to know all the Answers.

6) Don't compare your Life with others, You have no idea what their journey is all about.

7) SMILE .. You don't own all the problems in the world.

                                                             

Your thoughts can change everything ..

The way each of us think can dramatically change our moods. Good thoughts will definitely shine through our faces as this particular quote shows. Growing up I've realised how much i over think for the silliest things. I still remember when the first train journey alone to my mariappi's house; it was all the way in London. Till the minute i reached her house i was getting tensed of all the things which could go wrong in a train journey. The best people who knows how much of a overthinker i am is Mr. Anoop && Tuttu. 

This year i went through one of the most difficult phases in my life. It being personal and also study related. As a final year student there was a lot of pressure from each corner. About dissertation, exams (which was like LIFE or DEATH) and also the main important thing 'the Future' !! 

After a much hard work dissertation was completed smoothly. However then there was the dreadful exams coming around the corner. The one month Easter holidays all i spent was 50% thinking and worrying about exams as well as other million stuff rather than opening up a book and revising at least 2 pages. 3 weeks went passed quickly and the last week all i did was sit and make my revision notes colorful. 

For the past one year exams felt like a phobia to me. Which was very unusual for me,all these years I've dealt with exams very calmly. I was always a sort of person who thought 'don't care if i fail'. But this year, the amount of sleepless nights i have had, the dramatic phase of throwing up because of too much tension, lack of appetite was all a bit too much!!! In my mind all i thought was i'm gonna fail, i wont remember anything and i will have to resit. There no a single bit of confidence in myself. In the view of other's it looked like i'm over thinking about exams and crying for no reason. But the fact is that sometimes likes hard to change the way our brain process!


HOWEVER i've survived the exams and passed with a Bsc degree !! 

University life

September 2011 - The month which changed my life!!

I still remember the first day of fresher’s week when I was on the way to University of Lincoln for the first time with my mom on my side. Felt like a kid going to school. My emotions were mixed with immense curiosity and fright. After walking around the place for 20 minutes I finally found my University. It was beautiful than many other universities I have visited. The Brayford pool, the swans, and boats were looking very beautiful. Pinne kandethu njan pokan ettavum kooduthal aagrehicha Nando’s aayirunnu uni’yude opposite side’il. However I was most worried about whether I will find any Asian friends to hang out with.

The very nervous me and my mom were walking around uni and you can see so many happy faces; (maybe the happiness of finally leaving home), flyers of student night outs, parents dropping of their children etc. The first thing I noticed about my uni is that it wasn’t vast comparing to other universities. Which was a good thing in my opinion; because at least I won’t get lost in different buildings. The first talk was about welcoming all the students to the uni life and it finished in few minutes itself. As I was walking to the sports hall to make student ID I was eagerly looking around to see some Indian faces (well atleast Asian). But it was such a disappointment. I quickly went to the hall and they took my photograph and my student ID was ready and I was on the way back to my home. I guess my experience will be slightly different to other students as I didn’t had to experience the terrible home sickness by leaving in student accommodation. Come on.. when you get best food from home why should I leave in uni?? When my mom asked me about my first day I remember telling her ‘it was okay’ as I would say to anything. In my head first day was really worse, as I couldn’t imagine myself hanging out with these scientists for three years.

The next day I was determined not to be shy and decided that I will try making some new friends. As I walked near to Co-Op lecture theatre, I saw a british girl and she smiled at me. I smiled back and spoke to her and then I noticed an Indian girl standing next to her. Little did I know that she will be one of my best friends after that incident?  I remember when she told shes a mallu and I double checked it with her by asking her to tell me something in Malayalam :D. 2^nd day was a SUCCESS!! Hurrayyy ..

The next day we met up in train station and decided to go to all the talks together. We became good friends quickly. The lectures started from next week and it was going smooth, it seemed more layed back than school life so I was enjoying the most. NO homeworks!!! I met the next person of our triplet gang before entering one of the lectures. She was standing in a corner and she smiled and talked to us asking us if we were from India. Well three of us were happy that we found Indian friends. From then we became the famous TRIPLETS. [ JJK ]

Like any first years even we were very disciplined and focused. The times were fun when we use to have sleep overs in J’s flat, the revision times in library etc. First year went quick and easy, the assignments and exams seemed easier than A-levels (oh don’t get me started on them). Life seemed back on track after previous two years of hell from A levels. Daivam enne kaivittitilla ennoru thonnal.

Second year started and we met three new friends. (Miss. Jose, Miss. Sabu and Miss. Kaur) This meant that our gang have increased. 

As in every degree stage, 2^nd year was the hardest. Difficult lectures, practical’s on top of that external emotional stress. However we dealt with uni in our own way; We started skipping lectures, swapped our practical’s and even decided to assignments and revision the VERY LAST MIN. Another fun things we did was each of our friends b’day celebration. Our tradition was the sharp 12 o clock wish, gifts exchanging, cake cutting and dinner the next day. The first bday of 2^nd year was K’s bday which we gifted her a enormous teddy bear. And it back lashed at us, she never let us touch that teddy :’( . 

Second b’day was Miss. Kaur’s, were I had a break down and did some stupid stuff that day. Such as walking out of the train because I think I has a hormonal break down (LOL).

Third b’day was J’s, well her B’day was on exam day in May. Which made it even more special ! Miss. Kaur decided to cook us a lovely meal :). 2^nd year was tough where few of us went through a lot of emotional stress. 

THEN we decided to plan for a Paris trip. As any parents would say mine too said NO first. After a lot of convincing, we finally booked out ticket and went to Paris.

Words cant express how beautiful Paris was. It is a serene beauty with a lot of beautiful buildings and landscapes. Few down sides were Parisians doesn’t speak English, the weather was way too hot for me and a lot of pick pocketers. 

3rd year - I finally decided to be a big girl and moved out of parents house. And i cried on the first day coz i was home sick :D (well that wasnt very successful). But it turned out to be the best time living with five other besties. Apart from dissertation and studies. The best part of 3rd year was the amount of suprise b'day parties we hosted. Sneaking out and buying presents, ordering cake and into decorating. We all turned out to be the best birthday event planners. The diwali we celebrated in November changed everything around. We met new friends  and we all became party animals. (NOT) 

The amount of thulla games, sleepless nights, cooking for each others b'day, hosting parties at our house, fight over cleaning and cooking. 

Will definitely miss all these :'(.

Uni life was splendid. Enne egne akkiyethinu, oru Bsc degree thannathinu, enne ethreku confident aakiyethinu ellathinum thank you god and my lubly frnds !! Love Youuuu all !!

An Obession with Youtubers

As much as summer sounds fun this year has been slightly different. This year i finished my degree and this only means that boredom and laptop time has started. As we call this new generation era YouTube has a major impact on most youngsters & em not an exception. The moment i open my eyes i look through my subscription and check whether any new video is uploaded. Maybe i'm just nosy to look into other peoples lifes. However they put so much effort and time for this so maybe we should appreciate it.  

One of my favourite YouTuber at the moment is 'Sacconejoly'. They are a family vloggers. They vlog everyday of their life. SacconeJoly consists of Jonathan Jolly, Anna Saccone and their two kids emilia (biba) and Eduardo. The main reason i watch them is to see the cutest emilia. For a under 2 year she's so clever and the love she has for her baby brother Ardo is so adorable to watch. The most annoying thing is when a YouTuber dont upload video on time as your eagerness is killed. As because SacconeJoly upload every day that tension can be avoided. :) Everyone go check their channel out.

 

A View on myself ..

Growing up as the only child for 10 years was difficut yet i enjoyed it. One advantage is that i didnt had to share my things. People may think i'm being selfish, but the real truth is i enjoying being with my self. I enjoy spending time alone. The people who is close to me would say, i use to play alone. Eventhough there are kids in my neighbourhood, none of them where the same age as me.
One thing which i enjoyed the most was my school life. I studied in india till my 7th grade. Those memories will never fade.
Few of the things which i will never forget is..

• Forgeting my P.E shirt and getting beaten from teacher.
• Forgeting to do the hw and copying from your friend.
• Playing cupid instead of listening to teachers.
• Having silly fights with boys in our class.
• Hating go to mass every first friday of the month.
• Always getting low marks in marks.
• The excitement of going to computer practical classes. Because thats the only time i could play on paint.
• Not eating food from my lunch box, instead eating from my friends plate.
• The moments of my first love. I wrote his name everywhere on my book and never told my feelings to anyone.
• The angry mode i had when i saw him talking to other girls.
• The tours we wemt each year. My fav was moonar trip.
• Devastation when i heard i have to go to UK :(

This memories are in my mind like a petal in a flower. One of the things which i found out in my past 18 years is that i am very sensitive. I think i have always have been. Even if someone tell me something to make me better, it would hurt. Sensitivity is my biggest week point.